Loving Large
A Mother's Rare Disease Memoir

If not me, then who will save my child?

A mother must confront the unthinkable when her son is diagnosed with a rare medical condition.

Patti’s attention shifts fully away from her relationships and friendships as well as her own career and health. Her new normal sees her step into a dozen roles in addition to mom, including nurse, researcher, advocate, risk assessor, and promise maker, while she struggles and fails to rebuild her life as a freshly divorced woman. Adrift on the journey together, mother and son forge a connection like that of marooned shipmates.

In Loving Large, Patti’s voice exudes wit, wisdom, and humour as she discovers that resilience is learned and that the changes experienced in the aftermath of crisis can often create the greatest opportunities.

Patti M. Hall’s life is pitched into an abyss of uncertainty when a golf ball-sized tumour is discovered in her teenage son’s head and he is diagnosed with gigantism, a disease of both legend and stigma. After scrambling to access a handful of medical experts in the field, Patti learns that her son could grow uncontrollably, his mobility could be permanently limited, and his life could be cut short without timely and aggressive treatment.

Patti’s attention shifts fully to her son, away from her relationships as well as her own career and health. Her new normal sees her step into a dozen additional roles, including nurse, researcher, advocate, risk assessor, and promise maker, while she struggles and fails to rebuild her life as a recently divorced woman.

In Loving Large, Patti discovers that resilience is learned and that the changes experienced in the aftermath of crisis can often create the greatest opportunities.

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When Patti Hall's teenage son Aaron is diagnosed with acromegaly--gigantism, a life-threatening rare genetic disease, their whole family is thrown into chaos. Hall writes Aaron's story through a lens of such powerful love and unrelenting conviction, that the story becomes a collective, breathless race for a cure. This heartrending story of a devastating childhood illness is elevated by Hall's humor, her clear explanations, and her remarkable love for life and family. Loving Large tells the powerful and evocative story of a mother and son going to war against his rare disease, and truly it's a fight you don't want to miss.

Joselin Linder, Author of The Family Gene: A Mission to Turn My Deadly Inheritance into a Hopeful Future

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A gut-wrenchingly honest tale of how one woman navigated a giant swathe of unmapped terrain - both inside of herself and out. A Shapiro-esque memoir on motherhood. Just like its author, this book has staying power.

Steph Jagger, Author of Unbound: A Story of Snow & Self-Discovery

The harrowing drama at the center of Loving Large has been made beautiful and fascinating by Patti M. Hall’s ability to unfold the story with the pace of a medical thriller and infuse it with a soulful, aching heartbeat. Hall takes us into a world of hospital corridors and esoteric knowledge, to the literal and figurative waiting rooms occupied by the families thrown into a medical vortex they didn’t choose or imagine they would ever encounter. Punctuated with the sparkling, funny dialogue between mother and son (some of which made me laugh out loud), the story is sometimes one of isolation and sorrow as Hall races to find resources and answers for her son, often at the cost of her other relationships. Her journey raises questions of how we find solace, give and receive help, and barter with the universe when faced with impossible conditions. Hall, with utter frankness and grace, leads us to moments of illumination and even sanctuary, thanks to the magic of unrelenting love.

Maria Mutch, Author of Know The Night, When We Were Birds, Molly Falls To Earth


Loving Large takes the reader on an absorbing journey to a place that every parent fears, yet none truly believe they will ever have to go. Patti M. Hall inhabits the many roles her son’s health crisis demands of her in this intimate look at life with rare disease. The relationship between mother and son is equal parts engaging and hilarious, we are in the examining rooms with them, and holding our breath while they wait for good news. I felt myself relating to her both as a mother and as a writer in this beautifully written memoir that shows the limitless pull of the love we have for our children.

Cea Sunrise Person, author of Nearly Normal and North of Normal

The story behind the story...

Neuroscience tells us that the human brain’s amygdala offers very few options when we are under threat: fight or flight and, some researchers argue, freeze. But there is another crisis response, equally primordial, available to the most selfless of wretches—parents of sick children. Endure is the universal stress response for parents of kids who experience seemingly unconnected symptoms that baffle the best doctors.

When a grenade went off in my life, in the form of a diagnosis I thought only existed in medieval folklore, all my previously used crisis responses were rendered absurd: Fight – a desperate parent of a chronically or critically ill child engaging with the medical system is like a mouse confronting an elephant; Flight – because we love them, perhaps even more because they have health challenges, running is out of the question, because that would mean abandoning our child to confront the unthinkable alone. If they cannot run, neither will we; Freeze – to stand still would be to waste critical time, which our invisible foe might use to overcome our vulnerable son or daughter and take him or her from us.

So, we endure, and pay the ultimate price: ourselves. Months and years pass as we cling to long-shot fourth and fifth opinions, experimental treatments and drug trials, putting our own lives on hold so that we can perpetually patrol the perimeter of our children’s lives. Meanwhile our marriages and closest relationships implode, careers bomb, finances crash, and self-care disappears altogether with our identity in tow.

I was already juggling all of the requisite responsibilities of your typical suburban Super Mom of two young teens when my job description got a lot more complicated. The roles of advocate, cheerleader, first responder, researcher, and others to come were foisted upon me by my son’s diagnosis with an uber rare disease, and the burden got so heavy that it broke me. I got my son what he needed, but I cracked open like the continental divide, leaving who I was in the Before irretrievably behind.

Fifteen million children suffer from rare, chronic, or incurable diseases in the United States. I’ve written Loving Large for their parents. Every mother and father of a child touched by such a disease might have a unique tale of the diagnostic and treatment odyssey, but the commonalities of our experience, our heartache, and our despair make this everyone’s story.

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